There are no words that could possibly explain the rush of mixed emotions that are arising in me lately. It’s as if I could cry and laugh in the same exact moment. I am grounded and floating in the Unknown. I feel expansive and at the same time feel so lost, so stuck, I cannot…
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Tired
This unconscious weight I carry, this unconscious burden, complex, neurosis, whatever it might be called… this heavy uneasiness of being and breathing, blocking the longing of my heart, is slowly becoming visible. It’s slowly lighting up the parts that were ignored for too long. I am not afraid this time, because I am tired. Tiredness…
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There is a deeper sense of gratitude when i feel there is an ending… a limit, a change, a transformation… a beginning really. For me, gratitude stems from the deeper sense that All That Is, is ephemeral, and in its waning and waxing eternally, is constantly dying. Death has never been something to fear for…
Read MoreThe unknown known of nature
I walk around the garden and I feel life around me blooming. I have a special connection to nature that is different to my other over-intellectualised passions. It’s in my own essence to want to know everything, an eternal seeker, of truth and beauty above all. But nature… my curiosity and attraction for it is…
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“The tree that would grow to heaven must send its roots to hell.” Nietzsche. If there ever was a sentence that rings true for me this year, this is it. For the past 10 years I have grown so much, changed in ways I couldn’t have predicted, always in pursue of a better version of…
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